TODAY, dono count as what day..
nvm, i'll just say out my day today .
morning, okay okay.
after recess not okay.
i mean is damn not okay.
felt very very upset and confused.
dono what to do at tat time.
felt damn it SIANZ !
very stressed at that time.
nobody knows what happened.
i never talk much ..
only kept a glum face D:
eyes wet abit.
haix.
sms-ed baobei and tell her why.
she very nice , comforted me.
she say she'll wait for me at mama shop 1.15pm.
lunch, went basketball court wait for baobei.
she came liao.
we talk talk about why i sad just now than they all asking what we talking.
than i say no lah oly talking bout sebrina very sick.
i very lazy type lah.
after that i cried in front of baobei, cause she knew i very sad and alr wanna cry ler.
they all come and saw me cried.
sianz, i hate it ...
remedial sianz,
after remedial, went city square find baobei.
she damn good to me.
mei xian also there lah.
4.30 mei xian went home ler
we went to mini toons.
baobei bought a bear for me which cost $16.95^^ <3<3 thankyou!
after that went to timezone played ARCADE ! cool.
after playing ,we walk walk walk dono where to go.
went to Long john silver eat something.
lol.
went to mini bits, walk walk walk.
i say i wanna buy the keychain thingy at mini toons.
than walk bak again mini toon again.
boought a wishing glass der thingy and a keychain.
baobei also bought ^^
we planned to put insie the sand at the EAST COAST PARK ! ^^
yay.
i'm very haappy with baobei !
THANKYOU for lots of things !
today happiest !

<3 baobei , strawberry mei, lenglui jie jie

Labels: brokenheart, confused, cried, happy, smiling

Haiyos!
today was okay larh.
woke up at 1.15pm ><
pig.. hehes
wash up all these and ate lunch.
do homework...
2.30pm went to get ready for tuition.
played hamster awhile also.
lie on bed and wait for tutor.
tutor came.
tuition..
my compo sucks like hell.
tuition till 4.20pm.
rest awhile , ate snacks.
continue do homework.
do awhile than went to play audi.
played to 5.15pm.
get ready the things for swimming.
5.30pm went swimming.
freestyle - very good
breaststroke - lousy
lols.
after swimming, showered.
dry hair and went home.
tired..
heehees.
later gonna go out and eat..
still got so much homeworks haven't done.
zzzzzzzzzz
needa burn midnight oil or tomorrow go school copy loh.
haiyos.
but i think i'll burn midnight oil, cause today wanna be guAIKIA
hahe!
still miss-ed him but not a lot.
so, continue to jiayou to forget him barh !
GAMBATEH! <3

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Once upon a time i thought that you were special, now you're just another guy. So don't lead me on especially if it's a lie. Leave me alone , just like the way you've always done and don't ever come back to me.

Labels: revision, smiling

Todayyyyyyyyy ,
DONT KNOW is what WERID day arh !
morning 9.35am than woke up, tutor alr outside my house ler.
haven't wash up all these leys.
let tutor come in than i go wash up.
haiyas.
baddd. !
after tuition, watch ko 3anguo ep 31.
nicenice xD
wheewhhee !
watch finish already , went to sleep , tired.
had a bad dream.
so scare !
i woke up and felt damn werid, still having the frightening feeling that time.
o.o
really arh.....
after that i cook noodles myself, got hurt a little little bit.
nvm, ate and do tuition homewok.
played audition,
level 15 LER :D
grats to me.
and i've also improved on BEAT-UP and CHANCE xD
played and do homework at the same time .. ><
6plus went grandma house,
brought my science revision book there.
read read read...
zzzzz nothing say larhs today.
very sianz
every sat is like that larh.
PISSED !
nvm--
today also miss-ed him larh.
ZZZZZZZZZ
NOTHING TO SAY TODAY !
SIANZ ! , 1 WORD !
OKAY !
BYE BYE !

It hurts the most when your in pain but the person who can cure your pain isn’t there.

Labels: borinng, piss-ed, sulking

what should i say ?
12 days to PSLE.
and i'm like that.
i really really really dislike sch nowadays, you know why?
- i don't wanna see him !
- he'll affect me !
--
see, all is bout him ?...
PSLE is just round the corner and what attitude i'm having now?
am i at another country relaxing attitude?
or just don't wanna care ?
i don't know.
what i know is, i'm really very tired.
very !
but neevrmind, soon i'll not be facing you animore.
siannzz !
really wish to sleep sleep sleep and not wake up seh.
Everyday, i hope and prayed that one day you'll take off that ring from your left hand fourth finger.
But everyday you're still wearing.
I think i could really make 1 promise to myself.
I will not accept you anymore because i'm having the despair feeling for you.
don't know why lah, my blog's post everytime is becaue of that guy?
whyy.. ?
whyy ... ?
i'm not sure tooooo.
because when i'm typing, i'm alwaes thinking of him ?
haix.
is it loneliness or love ?
Everyday seems to be like a tired, despair and sianz feeling for me.
Seems like living in this world is no meaning at all.
...........................................
Why can't i get over you even when you've done so many things that hurt me?

Labels: confused, happy, love

Still remembered i said that Kevin Kor, last time my stead lah,
gave me prezzie and a card?
hehe, i nth do so i'll just type out the words in the card.

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TITLE: To the one I love
There are so many things that are special about you ~
You're wonderful n so many ways.
I'm glad you came into my life, I'm glad for the love we share...
and on your birthday, this comes with all my love
to wish you more than just a simple "Happy Birthday"
because you deserve so much more...

No one has ever made me feel so wonderful as you do.
No one has ever made me feel so loved and wanted and desired...
And I believe that in this world
there is a special person for everyone,
who brings out deep feelings no one else can.

There is a special love that lifts you up
to wonderful heights you never knew before.
There is a special love that touches your heart,
and never goes away from that moment...
And I know I've found that precious love in you.
Because no other person makes me feel like you do.

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when i was reading, i was damn touched and felt very blessed :D
hahas.
...
rememberd last time me and sy one month anniv.
a few days before our one month anniv, i prepared.
i planned to buy a card from precious thots.
went Plaza Singapura and chose damn long than chosed the card that i wanted.
bought $10++
and i also thought of those words i wanna written in the card already.
and those words, i used my sleep time to think .. about 1 or 2 hours to think and type out.
after bought i went home and immediately write it.
try to write very nice. Slowly 1 letter 1 word write.
spend dono how long to write finish.
our 1mnth anniv, you didn't even sms me and say anything bout it.
i know why...
i though after sch you would be very nice to me or whatever.
but i waited for you outside the basketball court toilet outside.
what you told me was, you have tuition and told me to go home.
i was damn disappointed, didn't felt like that before.
i put the 1 month anniv card in your bag and went to 30th floor ,
cause really upset alr.
tears began to flow down my cheeks and more more more..
it flows so quickly , really.
i thought alot, to trust you and all these,
than i wanna go home alr cause scare later think more will dono what ...
saw you steph and huang yao
i quickly hide at one spot.
i say to myself, that waasn't you walking,
that was somebody else.
and i followed you all to mrt,
comfirmed that it was really you.
guess what? i said to myself, i still trust you , shouldn't suspect you .
and i take another way back home.
reached home, at night was waiting for your sms.
not even 1 sms from you.
My H|E|A|R|T was ｓ/ｈ/ａ/ｔ/ｔ/ｅ/ｒ/ｅ/ｄ　into　ｐ/ｉ/ｅ/ｃ/ｅ/ｓ/
haix, ....
you really don't know how i'm feeling that time.
nevermind, bad memories i think i don't wanna keep it.
stay cheerful always <3:D
and single toooo！！

Labels: brokenheart

Helloo><
dont know why today arh, keep look till him.
morning went sch at 7.10am.. good that not late :D
lesson till recess...
Kevin Kor arh, 越来越会 piss me off har !
nevermind don't say him.
baobei today not happy D:
i also not happy D: , caus baobei not happy D:
her face today so glum , ... no smiling !!
really LEH!
haix, !
after recess science, than mt.
lunch, drank choco milk :D
walking to the basketball court there that time with jiemin and hui shan, shiyang walking to canteen, looked at him a few seconds and turn away cause jiemin say someting lols.
then hall not available cause p5 oral..
walked down to canteen again.
saw him but he didn't saw me.
sit down at the bench, talk talk talk than smiled and turn another direction, saw him also , he also saw me zzzzzz
he was like so lonely, kept walk here and there alone.
after that baobei call me to go up.
i dont want..
baobei and yuanting jie go up loh.
jiexin jiemin come and call me to go up.
i say dont want ,
jiemin say when sebrina ask you stand up u sure will stand up loh.
i say where got whatever whatever..
they kept say say say !
i angry already, shout and ran away.
running that time that baichi sy looking at those photo at the canteen o.o
dont want care and ran up to the staircase.
jiexin keep jio me.
at least jiexin is better now, jiemin arh....haix.
jiemin say she don't like people to say her than she kept say me and the prob is i didn't even done those things.
see......
don't wanna compare jiexin and jiemin but jiexin now really is more better to me lah.
ran up fourth floor , ran to water cooler.
ran bak class and put bag on my lap and 躺下来.
chinese mock test.... till 3.20pm
lining up that time, walk a 1 or 2 steps only and i turn another direction, saw him again and he also looking at that direction ...
today is wat day har? kept face to face wit him.. ><
after that went library to xtra remedial :D
good good !
after remedial came out from library saw dear and some p5s.
hehe smiling :D
Miss Campos ask us to eat those food.
ate small sandwich and that food dono call wat.
hehe saw dear smile so nice ^^
after that walked down with huishan.
walked home^^
today homeworks and homeworks.
MOREＭＯＲＥMORE!
haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
i'm dying.
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There's no love like lost love, and no pain
like a broken heart. There's no love like you and me
and no loss like us apart

Labels: dono, half happy half sad, smiling

Sianz, almost stress-ed out today.
tuition arh , <3<3 lah.
so tireddd.
tried hard not to yawn during tuition lesson.
haiyo,
still got lotsa homework haven't done.
good that sch homework miss bay gave is fri pass up.
today not alot homework from school lah, thanks :D
can relax abit.
after tuition i kept hugging Kevin Kor gave me der bear, dono why ?
now still hugging =)
last time when me and Kevin Kor patch -- Godbrother and sister lah.
he ask me whether if i've throw away the bear.
i say haven't , i put beside bed.
he say got hug?
i say never..
than he give me the sad expression.
the next day i ask him, you want me to hug that bear?
he say yah.
i hug lohss (:
haiyo, i think here and there, really felt that jiexin & jiemin jie are selfish.
i only follow baobei like 1 or 2 days then they say i pangsei them.
no difference from last time me and deanne, zhi yin and yee lin ..
so what you all want me to do?
you want me to follow you during recess or wat?
recess that time you all eating, me and baobei finish eating liaos.
i want go toilet, nobody pei me and everybody eating, i call baobei pei me luhs.
after coming out from toilet saw Kuang Guan alone at basketball court playing what.
you all know i always desires for basketball right..
than you all also don't wanna play with the guys basketball..
i only can pull baobei go play loh !
i call u all go play you all say dont want dont want.
zzzzzzz !
neverminds.
and i hate gossiping , jiexin jie still say when i never follow them, they say alot of things ...
i'm not even interested, okay.
Nevermind, i don't wanna say further, later you all come and kill me,
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Zhi Xin kor arh, 振作一点吧，不要像个死人似的！

Have you ever just wanted to die...kill yourself and forget how you tried?

Labels: dono, piss-ed

Guess what ?
PSLE left 14 days.
2weeks.
tomorrow will be 13 days , means 1 week and 6 days.
sianz.
i think i've tried to use my heart to feel if sy is real this time.
but i think, i felt till ... he's not true, not true !
he'll cheat me again.
yah maybe.
and slowly, i began to think about next year, we won't be in he same sch, and all these.
So thats why bahh.
haix, guess today is another heartbroken day?
though i didn't let my feelings out.
and i talk to kor that time he kept turn to my direction o.o
at least i've smiled alot today, alot i think:D thanks to kor and jies and baobei.
at recess, played basketball with baobei and kuang guan.
hit till chin .. blah.. ><
after that jie min and jie xin jie say i pangsei they all, kept go with Sebrina..
zzzz
i'm rather heartbroken and sad now ..

Just now, i'm thinking all these :
if i'm gonna stead with him again, i must have to prepared for the feelings of getting cheated again.
but i don't want, so i don't wanna stead with him.
even if we stead, next year we also will not be in the same school together, so there's no point at all.
i rather not go into the same sch as him, cause next year if i never go same sch with him, i'll slowly be able to get overr him.
what i really hated most is that ring on his left hand fourth FINGER !
AND I ALSO HATED MOST IS , he haven't broke with his gf.
he's really... i dono what to say about him. -- speechless for him.

Why do I try not to cry, sometimes I think I could die. But when it comes out, I just want to shout, and scream and cry it all out.
I really can't take up so much things inside me, i'm so stress-ed out in love, studies, parents and lotsa lotsa things. I just dont wanna do anything anymore, just sit and cry..

Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody. You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy but at the same time you don't know exactly what is wrong either? i've got this feeling before, and i thought over and over again what exactly went wrong, but i just can't get the answer.



i'm sick of tring, it's all over, no turning back,
no more chances or even looks, you've had many
oppurnities that you've never wanted try to cherish it , you may just
not even understand, the nights lieing awake thinking
about you or the tears rolling down my face when wishing that you're always happy.
I wish that I could turn back the time,
Cause if I knew that your love towards me is like this,
Back then I wouldn't have made you mine.

I really wants to make him feel so much bad inside almost like
a feeling of knives going through his heart,
because that doesn't even compare to what I'm Feeling Right Now..

For every heart that found a love,
there's a heart that'll cries.
For every dream that is reborn,
there's a dream that dies.
For everyday filled with sun,
there's a day of rain.
For every hour filled with joy,
there's an hour of pain.
For every smile upon a face,
There's a tear to cry.
For every cheerful hello you says,
there's a sad goodbye.
Eventually, everything will comes to an end.

I cant stand the thought of him with his current girl.
It rips my heart apart to think that he would carelessly
throw away what we had.
for someone who could never make him as happy as i did.

I'm really so stupid, really stupid.
You know why?
Because over and over again, I've always trusted every word you've said.

From now on, i'm not gonna trust his single words, he've hurt me too many times, too many. I can't even count finish all the scar he've left for me. If he could feel the great 100000000x pain i'm feeling now, i wonder what reaction he will give me.....

Labels: brokenheart, give up, smiling

Waseh,
yawning..
just now i slept from 6plus to 9.
cause very tired marh.
'than haven't done homework yet.
ate dinner watch tv show till 10pm , start doing homework.
asked baobei alot bout the homework lols.
steph mei still tell me help her in chinese comphre.
do till siao seh do so much comphre for chinese.
done 4 comphre? zzz
used 1hour plusplus.
and also did 2questions of math.
after that do tuition engligh situational writing.
still got math whole chaper HAVEN'T done ..
tomorrow also so late come back and tutor coming very early..
haiyas.
at least i'm not stress-ed out , i think :D
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think through already, i'll be happy everyday,
don't wanna know the things which hurts me or affects me.
just continue with my life,
after psle , play.
results come out, choose the sch i wanna go to.
don't wanna stead now.
don't wanna care whether i love him anot ald.
just enjoy life after psle.
and now study study study :D
is this plan okay? , i think it's perfect^^ wahha i'm so smart.
jkjk XD.
Stomachache now alrready.. oh my..


There are things i don't want to happen,
but i have to accept it. There are things
i don't want to know, but i have to
learn. And there are people i can't live
without, but i have to let go.

Labels: happy, move on, smiling

Today whether was okay.. except sometimes like gonna rain than kept never rain.
now, the clouds also like wanna rain but dono will rain anot.
morning was ....
5 periods till recess all IS MISS BAY's lesson.
haiyo.
Kevin Kor's today attitude i don't like.
He's like so bad loh.
talk those words, hurt my feeling. Than i say don't want talk to you liao.
He say don't want loh.
i turn in front eyes wet wet ald.
after awhile , he call me, i don't care don't wanna ans him liao.
last time at least when i say i dont want talk to him ald , i never so angry loh.
this time so angry.
after that jieli dono why also angry with kor.
Jiexin kept call kor to say sorry to JieLi.
But kor dont want. He say he's not at fault.
after that he call me name again..
i still dont care.
jiexin jie and yu jia call me than i ans wahaahah !
jiexin jie talk talk talk with kevin kor until say bout me.. than dono what.
i quickly turn around and say i don't like you today. Attitude so bad, not like the kor i've known.
Jiexin jie also say yah loh.
Kevin kor and me and jie xin jie discussed about the ME, JIELI, JIEMIN, JIEXIN and KEVIN's attitude.
Kor say last time when kor call jie li, she will say yes ah kor.
than now, kor say he call jie li than jie li say WHAT LAH.
whatever whatever.
she also say me jie xin and jie min what what. , i mean the attitude change.
than i say only after stead than change abit mah..
hahaas.
than we all 一人让一步，don't be rude to kor and kor also don't be rude to us.
than kor test us alot times, he call 'ivy' than i say 'yes kor'?
he kept cotinuously call than i say 'what lah kor'
than he shocked hahaha..
after that we all meis also fine with him ald.
at recess, played basketball :D so fun.
played with jonathan di they all.
they say i so lousy T.T
After recess mt and sci.
Lunch, ate maggie mee.
bought mineral water after tat.
when opening tat time, i turn to the dessert and snack station, shiyang there , i dono than face till him , he also face till me.
i quickly turn-ed away.
preparing to go back class, called baobei up to 2nd level.
saw miss bay, quickly ran to her, she tell us to take tings up for her.
she go hall and take our classmates.
went up to 4th level, saw shiyang again...zzz
shiyang help to carry the bag from baobei there.
than baobei say 那个shiyang神经病的 cause he walk into 6/2 class than come out.
i say 本来就是啊.
go back class, baobei talked nonsense to me.
i kept drank mineral water.
remedial remedial, 3pm jiexin, baobei they all and steph they all go home. i mean jiexin , baobei they all go tuition, steph they all go home tuition.
stayed till 4.30pm.. do math math math.
waahs.
after that went to City Square bought bubble tea and chicken pie puffs.
haven't yet full-ed during lunch hehe.
haix today was count as a MISSING　HIM DAY?
Cause i think i never try giving him up.
Cause PSLE 1st WHAT.
than made me felt more moved.
stupid.. haix.

Today, if a happy smile comes to you, a happy smile that perhaps you can't explain... it is because at that moment, i am thinking of you and you felt loved.

Labels: happy, smiling

Changed Blogskin ,
like it?
i don't care, as long as i like it:D
hahas!
haven't revise leh.
haix, i kept thinking of play play play seh.
don't wish to go to sch tomorrow, really.
don't wanna face tomorrow too.
sch has become a part of my fear.
idk why.
maybe there's lots of reasons.
Nvm, still needa revise and do hw no matter what.
Relax , breathe in and out.
siao i also not giving birth. lols!
'Don't think of anything 1st.
clear my mind !
k lah enough, bye bye :D takecare !

Labels: smiling

Saying real,
though i didn't really expressed my REAL feelings on my nowadays previous posts,
i think i really felt pain inside ?
What's wrong with me?
i don't felt unhappy, sad, depressed or whatever ?
but i just felt pain deep inside my heart.
dono why, just don't felt like it is a whole , full heart.
haix.
emotional ?
heartbroken ?
moody ?
unhappy ?
depressed ?
sad ?
happy ?
happiness ?
sulky ?
idk which expressiion i'm feeling currently,
really....
maybe my face express very happy happy feelings , but inside my heart,
i really don't know how it is feeling.
thats why, i said feelings are hard to express ..

There's this little , weak girl in the mirrior. I wondered who she is? Sometimes i think i know her a lot and sometimes i wish i did ? There is a deep story in her eyes, lullabies, and goodbyes.. When she's looking back at me, I can tell.. that she's hurting inside. So tell me, am i really myself?

Never underestimate the PAIN of a person because the truth is that everybody are struggling. It's just that some people hide it better than the others, so don't underestimate the pain inside me too. Becuase i also dk exactly how i'm currently feeling. The pain , the happines or the cut?

Sometimes the pain inside me is just tooooo strong to bare.. & life gets so hard that you just will not care about ANYTHING. You feel so alone that you'll just sit and cry... & every second, you wish you could just die. Then you'll start thinking who would care if one day they woke up and you weren't there.

Most of them just never know, so many emotions i've chose not to show..
I see the blood all over my hands, does it make myself feel more like a man? Was it all just a part of your plan? The pistol is shaking in my hands.. and all i hear is the sound..... ......

I really don't know what i'm doing anymore. I don't know what i wanna see, what i really wants. My world used to be worth living for, and now it's hard enough just to be me.

I think i'm jjust lying to myself, for forcing myself not to care, forcing myself to do things that i'm not willing to. But if i did not do that, i would be even hurt and maybe i would die of tears.

There is only one rain cloud in the sky, and it's raining on me. Somehow i'm now surprised, because i'm always the one.
I woke up and think dreams are real. I sleep so I don't have to feel.

I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousands and thousands of years, or just not exist in this world, or just not be aware that you do exist, or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but i want it when i get like this. That's why i'm trying no to think, i just want it all to stop spinning.

Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand, but sometimes i wondered, did you ever tried to understand?

No matter what, no matter who, no matter what I've done, somebody hates me because in most people's eyes, i'm a bitch to them. Just because i wanted to try out my own real feelings.

Life doesn't hurt until you hink about how much things you've done, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.
Somtimes i wish i could just be a litte kid again, so when life gets touch you can just play pretend. I wanna go back to when Santa did exist. When your daddy was the only boy you've ever kissed. When Disney World was the best place to be. When the only movies you could see were rated G. When your biggest problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change.. and your friends were the same, and it would never change. And everytinme you were sad or you've a bad day. You could just run to mommy and it would all be okay. I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter. When everyone always lives happily ever after.
I wanna get lost from my life sometimes, sit on the side and watch the world go by, I wanna get lost and I don't know why.

if i could ever stop my life for a few hours, i think lots of things would be changed.
You know sometimes, like when someone dies, and you're sad, and it's okay to be sad? But then there are times when you're supposed to be happy but you're sad anyway...and those times are even worse than the times when you're supposed to be sad.
I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now, so how can I be sure about anything? Most of the time I feel so awkward, you know, like I don't belong in my own skin, I get frustrated at everything, I could just scream and there's no reason for it. I just felt losted.


No one will ever know, the pain I feel inside....
It's so hard to believe, that you were never meant to be mine, NEVER ,
But at least, when i click edit posts, most of my labels for my previous posts are SMILING instead of other expression <3

Labels: confused, dono

Waaa, just came bck from swimming ><
i think i've running nose now liao..
think i've caught a cold during swimming ! T.T
today hor i woke up at 2.30pm zzz.
lazy pig me <<
haiyas, yesterday abit late sleep marh.
i do the science so many pages..
my tuition teacher larh, call me do so much pages than today pass up.
luckily tomorrow no sch, cause i've only done 3/4 of chinese worksheet.
maths only less than 1/4 and eng haven't even touch-ed yet...
O.ooo homework homework homework.
psle psle psle,
they're all suffocated in my brain already.
tomorrow still got swimming at 5pm.
lols.
tomorrow maybe after swimming , fever alr.
hahahahas.
aiya, i'll takecare of myself der, don't worry arh dearest peoples. ^^
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i still miss-ed you, didn't want that to happen but just can't control myself.
now, i never try hard to forget you already.
because of psle, i need to work hard to that first.
don't wanna put too much stress on myself.
100% i'm having running nose now.
lols, yoú wouldn't care..
í think i really does mind if you cared anot.
but i'll try try try not to care if you care.
i didn't felt unhappy, sad, lonely, heartbroken, angry or whatever expression that is because of you already.
because i try not to know anything about you.
i don't know if you know exactly wat is true love?

but i know that every night before I fall sleep, I hope that I will no longer weep for you and miss you, and that somehow, someday.. , I'll get over you.

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To zhi xin kor:
This message for zhi xin kor der:D
just now , zhi xin kor called me.
he sounds polite, he said he's heartbroken, sad.
he kept said he don't know why.
he ask me what i'm doing. i said playing audition.
he ask me whether i can come out and accompany him. i say too late, sure can't.
he ask me what time i'm sleeping. i said soon.
he ask me whether i could do him 1 favour.
he say no one miss him, love him, care him all these.
and he call me to miss him tonight.
平常, zhi xin kor will not say goodbye to me first der, on fone.
this time he first time so polite to me and say goodbye first.
guessed he is really very heartbroken this time.
i wanna tell zhi xin kor, no matter wat, must be happy:D
smile smile smile and smile.
i know the feelings of HEARTBROKEN , as i've had it before.
so, i know exactly how you're feeling.
try not to care bout preciesly how you feel now, see what happens - happens.
it's very pain but we need to get on with life yah? :D
first time you're so polite to me, zhi xin kor,
from now on, i wanna tell you, if u need me, just find me.
if i've time, i'll sure give accompany you der =]
if i no time, i'll politely tell you heehees..
won't be so bad and fierce to you already ^^

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Ehh, i dono where to do my revision, so i'll just do it in my blog.
hahas, i'm abit bo liao >< and cause cause i everyday come blog than also can revise mah.
See this method is smart right?
haha jkjk let's start wif my revision !
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Science Revision on Adaptation:D
Land Habitats
Coping with temperature
(structural adaptation)
Polar bear lives in arctic cold regions. It has thick fur, a layer of insulating fat under the skin to keep the animal warm and a layer of air close to the skin to prevent heart loss to the surrounding.

Musk ox, Arctic fox and Snow shoe rabbit lives in arctic cold regions. They have thick fur and a layer of fat under their skin to keep themselves warm.

Snowy owl and Ptarmigan (a bird) lives in arctic cold regions. They have thick feathers to keep themselves warm.

Fennec fox lives in desert climates. It has huge ears enabling blood that is pumped through the larger exposed surface to lose heart quickly.
(behavioural adaptation)
Bear and Squirrel live in arctic cold regions. They hibernate, slowing down life processes such as respiration and digestion in order to survive cold and long winter periods.

Coping with light conditions
(structural adaptation)
Owl and Bat have big eyes with special eye cells that are sensitive to small amounts of light, enabling them to see well in the dark.

Rose, Rattan, Bougainvillea, Cucumber, Bittergourd and Watermelon have hooks on their stems to help them climb on a support to reach for sunlight and have tendrils to help them climb up spports for more sunlight.

Morining glory has weak and twinning stems for climbing up supports.

Money plant has clasping roots for climbing up supports.
(behavioural adaptation)
Owl and Bat have nocturnal behavior (active in the night and rest in the day) allows these animals to adapt to the light conditions of their surroundings.

Coping with availability of water sources
(structural adaptation)
Cactus has enlarged stems to store water, few stomata and waxy cells to reduce water loss. Had needle-like leaves reduce water loss through transpiration.
Has hairy leaves to reduce water loss by EVAPORATION.
(behavioural adaptation)
Camel drinks a lot of water.

Cactus had long roots that grow deep into the ground to tap water.

Coping with movement within different land habitats
(structural)
Polar bear has stiff hairs at the bottom of its feet allowing it to walk on ice without slipping.

Camel has large and padded feet enable it to walk on fine sand without sinking.

Money and Orang utan have a long tail and long limbs to swing from branch TO branch.

Aquatic habitats
Adaptation for movement in water
Shark, Barracua, Guppy and Swordtail have streamlined body shapes which reduce water resistance, allowing them to move easily.

Seagull, Frog and Duck have webbed feet for paddling in the water.

Seal, Turtle, Penguin and Dolphin have flippers to move around in water as well as to get on land.

Water boatman and Water bug have oar-like legs to propel forward in water.

(structural)
Cod and Shark store oil in their livers to stay buoyant in water.

Dolphin, Fish and Whale have a powerful tail fin to propel them forward in water.

Seal and Whale have a thick layer of blubber under their skin to stay buoyant.

Adaptations for breathing
(Structural)
Fish, Prawn, Tadpole and Dragonfly numph have gills to absorb dissolved oxygen.

Whale, Dolphin, Seal, Salion and walrus(aquatic mammal) have blowholes to breathe.

Water scorpion, Water stick insect, Mosquito pupa and Mosquito larva have breathing tubes to breathe.

(Structural)
Crab, Hermit crab and Mudskipper have gill chambers to store waterso they can breathe in dissolved oxygen from the water while on land.

Frog, Toad and Tubifex worm have special moist skins for breathing.
(Behavioural)
Water Boatman, Backswimmer, Water Spider and Great Diving beetle trap air bubbles on their bodies to breathe.

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Mary's Song (Oh My My) by Taylor Swift


She said, I was seven and you were nine
I looked at you like the stars that shined
In the sky, the pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
Growing up and falling in love and our mamas smiled
And rolled their eyes and said oh my my my

Take me back to the house in the backyard tree
Said you'd beat me up, you were bigger than me
You never did, you never did
Take me back when our world was one block wide
I dared you to kiss me and ran when you tried
Just two kids, you and I...
Oh my my my my

I was sixteen when suddenly
I wasn't that little girl you used to see
But your eyes still shined like pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
They never believed we'd really fall in love
And our mamas smiled and rolled their eyes
And said oh my my my...

Take me back to the creek beds we turned up
Two A.M. riding in your truck and all I need is you next to me
Take me back to the time we had our very first fight
The slamming of doors instead of kissing goodnight
You stayed outside til the morning light
Oh my my my my

A few years had gone and come around
We were sitting at our favorite spot in town
And you looked at me, got down on one knee

Take me back to the time when we walked down the aisle
Our whole town came and our mamas cried
You said I do and I did too
Take me home where we met so many years before
We'll rock our babies on that very front porch
After all this time, you and I

I'll be eighty-seven; you'll be eighty-nine
I'll still look at you like the stars that shine
In the sky, oh my my my...

Yo ,
waseh, today woke up at 8.30am, though really don't wanna wake up. (bleah)
than wash-up all these, don't kinda feel like eating breakfast.
so never eat anything loh.
went blogthings ans quiz.. hehe.
around 9am, tuition teacher came.
tuition till 10.50am?
watch KO 3ANGUO till around 12+pm.
feel like going shopping at city square already.
today opening hehehe.
jiexinjieminjieli say they play lan first than go ..
so i went alone first loh.
shop till around 2pm than they came.
there shop was okay lah, very big.
but still got a lot of shops and levels haven't opened.
i like the couple lab shop a lot.
kept looking at those rings.
but den , i also no couple, look also bo use blahblahblah ><
i've bought a necklace and 1 small small soft toy for hanging handfone der:D
and drank bubble tea and ate old chang kee der fishball hahahas.
around 2pm jiexinjieminjieli came.
went level 1 to find them.
they play lan until no money already ... -.-lll
there der clothes was abit ex.
but lots of promotion.
after PSLE go there again, sure got lots of shop open already.
hahas.
18more days to PSLE o.o !
haiiix.
Jiayou bah ,
hope jiexinjieminjieli don't kept go lan play till dono howda study .. zz
later dono going to xiao gu house or grandma house..
but go grandma house better.
cause there nearer..
and can come home faster.
hahahahs.
kk good luck to me:D
and love my baobei, dear, jies.
LOVELOVELOVE<3<3<3

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HEEHEE ^^
PSLE Left 19 days.
Today PSLE LC , easier than PRELM'S LC loh..
haahaas.
lol, just piss-ed my sis off ><
aiya , i also not purposly one, sorry lah..
after LC , went to eat lunch , dessert.
than went back sch library remedial.
heehe miss bay only chose abit ppl to go.
the ppl who've went there are : jie li, stephanie, hui shan, shiyang, yong yi, yu jia, wei sheng, rajendiran. ( I THINK )
So funn^^
Better than in class hahahahas.
done worksheet, quite challenging... O.O
after school raining, jie li want ask jie xin to bring umbrella for us than i say dont want lah, just run lah ...
jie li kept dont want run.
i tell her "i go liao arh" , "you don't want go?"
she bad bad say dont wan go.
i run out she also followed hahahahahah.
luckily not raining heavily.
reach home, showered, eat.
Haiyaya =]
Nothing to say today, but i'm happpyhappyhappppying ^^
though haven't forget him , but now i also don't care alr, PSLE FIRST^^

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Haix.
Missing that bastard guy again.
I'm damn frustrated with myself, kept on missing him.
I know must be patient to forget someone.
But i really have no time already what.
After psle i scare my heart will be touch-ed by him again.
I DON'T WANT #&@(#&(@#&*^!@*&!
:O!!!!!!
Sianz, studied , played , ate.
Really sianz.
I think i miss-ed that guy until i don't wanna study liaos?
haix haix haix,
SO HARD TO CONTROL MY OWN FEELINGS !
After PSLE if i still haven't forget arh, i think i'll be insane alr.
INSANE INSANE INSANE !
i think i'm alr insane now?
lol, jkjk.
PSLE tomorrow i won't insane one larh.
tomorrow psle i dono will worry anot.
SOO GOOD that tomorrow SEATING PSLE LC no need to sit beside sy. :D
Cause cause at first the seating arrangement is i sit BESIDE SY, then today teacher say got change , so happy:D ( but dono is real happy anot.)
aiya, actually like no difference, i only sit left than middle is larry than right is sy.
zz
Nevermind, i'll put my full concentration tomorrow :D
Haahaas:D
GOODLUCK TO EVERYBODY IN FPPS FOR THE PSLE LISTENING COMPHRE ^^
TAKE CARE OF YOU ALL'S HEALTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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............
SO hard to forget 1 person,
the world's hardest thing to do is to forget 1 person yah?
kelian kelian me D:
haiyass.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY VERY SINCERELY WANNA FORGET HIM!
PLEASE!
I WON'T BELIEVE HIM AGAIN, I WON'T ACCEPT HIM AGAIN AND I WON'T WANNA FALL FOR HIM AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!
i kept missing him .. , hate it lots lots lots lots lots
Must to get on with my happy life, without him.
Laughter gives us distance.
It allows us to step back from an event, deal with it and then move on, so i must to move on heehee :D
So wish-ed i'd a fairygodmother , to help me fufil all my wishes !
love is like a suicide.
jie xin jie still say she wanna find bf ,
she'll regret it someday if she've started stead-ing..
cause, once you've started , it's hard to turn back already.
Feelings are weirld ..
So , we've be SURE our feelings before we make any decisions .. yupp?
or else , ggetting hurt the one , is only yourself to blame ..
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i dono what my love and his love are count as? but i think i'll count our love as'SAD LOVE' .
but i can say that my love towards you are DEFINETELY TRUE!
But you, ? i don't know , and i don't wish to know.
cause i'll sure get hurt no matter wat ur ans is.
True love is like ghosts, which everybody talks about and few have seen it , and i also wish i would have it ..
Great passions don't exist: they're fantasties liars.
What do exist are little loves that may last for a short or a longer while, that's "HIM".
i only can say, this guy i won't trust , won't stead with , close with and even want him alreadyy.
i'm too easily touched by his actions towards me.
i regretted stead-ing with him.
or else i won't be what i'm now, miss-ing and still loving.
but i also can't blame myself , because i didn't know that this kind of thing would happened to me......
Psle only left 20 days? tomorrow will be 19days ler...
Tml is last day of ghost festival bah? good luck :D
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God , i wish to seeks for something , really , only 1 thing.
Please , please , please let me to forget liu shiyang.
I'm willing to do ANYTHING in order to forget him.
I just can't stand the pain anymore, it really hurts hurts hurts so much.
I know my request are unrealistic or whatever,
but i really only wish this please.
I know i've to only count on myself to do it and alot of people will also ask for this kind of request, you can't possibly , or specially only fufil my wish for me right?
But i'm just asking only , hope you can feel my sincere about that request.
ThankkYouu.
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Maybe yoú all will think i'm siao or watever , but i'm really in pain i don't wanna love him anymore.
He'll not know that i'm in pain for him,
he'll not know that i'm sad for him,
he'll not know how i'm feeling,
he just will not know anything about me, ANYTHING!
I'm just wondering , is this god's will to make me not forget him ,?
and still continue to miss and love him so much ?

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Wahhsehh !
today dammn tiring ! D:
but i'm very happy, kept smiling :D
AT school dono why , mood just very good.
I think is because i've decided not to think beyond the imperfections ^^
So thats why hehhe!
Haiya, today kevin kor so iritating , kept say about sy sy !
Jie xin jie leh, kept very like i dono how to say , she kept saying cantonese "fuck your mother" zzz so wish to KILL HER !
Jie min jie leh, i also dono how to say lah , but i wanna SMACK HER !
Jie li jie leh, today bully wo T.T ..
Sebrina Baobei today ok ok lah O.O never bully never bad to me ..
Later they see this post sure will angry and come and find me, than later say i say sebrina good good or watever haix.
I'm just saying out how i feels eh..
SUPER TIRED SIA!
Stress-ed?
haiiiya!
AAt sch KEPT YAWN YAWN YAWN!
7.30pm tuition that time , break hor , i sleep .
after break , woke up and teacher say i was really very tired wor O.O
sianzz.
MUST SLEEP EARLY TODAY !
K lah, i go do other thingy liao, bye bye :D

Labels: happy, smiling

THANK YOU 100X SEBRINA BAOBEI
I love you so much :D
you're damn nice to me ever since i've become ur baobei.
i felt damn loved by you:D
you're always there for me and i'm touched ^^
I just wanna say thank you and i love you alot (:

This Heart is for you heehee ^^

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Lyrics of the song , FEARLESS by Taylor Swift

There's somethin' 'bout the way
The street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement
Walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot
Yeah
Oh yeah

We're drivin' down the road
I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool
Run your hands through your hair
Absent mindedly makin' me want you

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why when with you I dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless

So baby drive slow
'Til we run out of road in this one horse town
I wanna stay right here in this passenger's seat
You put your eyes on me
In this moment now capture it, remember it

Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless

Well you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake
I'm not usually this way but
You pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss,
It's flawless,
Really something,
It's fearless.

Oh yeah
And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me head first
Fearless
And I don't know why but with you I would dance
In a storm in my best dress
Fearless

Yeah
I don't know how
Oh yeah yeah

Another heartbroken day..
It's always the same.
At recess knew that sy still wearing that ring..
mood straight away changed liaozz,
change to very moody.
moody till lunch than went to 4th floor ,
alone , cause i wanna cry , wanna 静一静 awhile..
after that , i felt relieved more liaos.
at hall saw baobei , steph mei and hui shan,
they ran to me.
and say alot thingy hehehe , to make me laugh, thanks baobei :D
baobei still say my blog very sad T.T
after that miss bay came , went back class.
mood alr okay liao.
Test till 3.30 pm .. zzzz
haix , after that went home liaos.

That feeling was damn pain, hate it..
steph mei still ask me why .. zz
Myy heart, had been shattered into pieces again.

I don't wanna fall for him again, dont think I can
take the pain. Don't wanna have these feelings again if he doesnt feel the same way. Don't want my heart to jump when I haven't talked to him for a whil.e
don't wana see him grin if Im not the one whos making him smile
dont wannaa try to explain if he'll never understand
I dont want tears in my eyes everytime I think of the memories we had.
Dont want my heart to be empty if he is the only one who can fill the space
I don't wana tell him or let my feelings show
dont wanna get played anymore.
Before I met him, I was always
considered the strong one,
the one who never got hurt;
I could do anything and never fall.
I felt like I was the epitome of invincibility;
of confidence. Now you've come along , you've broken my heart,
and you've shaken me from that really strong
foundation that I had spent years constructing.
I found out more about myself than I ever had before.
I found that my foundation wasn't as
strong as I thought it was .
I found that love isn't all it's cracked up to be
and I found that this time
maybe I won't be able to get
back up quite so easily...
you've ruined my life..

Just when I think things between us are getting better,
you have to turn around and do this, Break my
heart in another place.
Eventually I wont have a heart left because you have broken it too many times.
So tell me this, when are you going to take the pieces of my heart
and put them back together and never ever let it break again?

I'm just wondering if it hurts that you to know that I cant talk to you.
What do I say to someone who has hurt me,
confused me, and broken me beyond measures
but who I still love more than words can express?
It wouldn't have been so bad if my
expectations hadn't been so high...
I just expected us to be together for so much longer..., even FOREVER.
and for you to never hurt me...
I'll never expect anything from you again because all gets
me is always a broken heart..

One day, you said everything was just right.
I don't see how it changed over night.
One day, you said everything was so strong.
The next day you turn to me and say it's
been wrong all along.
I never meant to cause you any harm.
How could two people start out so close and end up so far? I'm breaking down ..

It was as if I wanted to cry myself to sleep.
I thought that maybe my tears would cause him
pain, let him know how bad I was hurting
but I knew that was just silly.
He would not know of my pain.
He would not see my tears. So it doesn't
matter, I would be the only one to ever
feel the pain anyway..

You never really fall out of love with your first love.
You just find someone else who can cover up the feelings
but every once in awhile, you still wonder what could have been and a tear runs down your face.

Sometimes I wonder if I just faked our whole relationship...
if he ever really did love me....
if I ever really did know the feeling of how it felt to be loved
and to love....
maybe I just made the whole thing out to be more than it was.
Because he's with her now.
He's been with her for 1 month plus.
and my dreams and hopes of love
are suddenly shattered....
because I know now that when I call out his
name at night....he's calling out hers
and there's nothing in the world that
hurts more....than knowing the only man
I've ever loved.... is out there loving someone else..

My tears are still falling from my eyes
this isn't about wishing you'd come back
to me, and it's not about wishing someone
would notice me. This is about surviving.
This is about simply getting through tomorrow.
You said you love me , you say that when you're 寂寞 you'll always think of me.
I don't know whether to believe you or not.
because each and everytime i believed you, in the end i'll only get back pieces of heart which is broken.
Isnt it funny how you hate the guy
who broke your heart yet when he comes
running back your arms are wide open , ? that's me.
But i'll stay strong and reject him :D

In my dictionary, there's only one word that you'll always give me.
That is,
DISAPPOINTED

I THINK i'll never trust him again.
My 1st time trusting so much about one person, and he just take my trust for him for granted.
i can only say you're really a great lover yah ?

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Haiyas ...
very confused.
dont wanna think so much liao ler !
):
sianzz..
nevermind ..
i also dono what to say liaos AIYOS !~
Sy and Kevin , idiot !
only these two people arh, will always make me alot of problem to think of want.
fuck fucks fucks !
only 22 days to psle liao?
I REALLY NEED TO CONCENTRADE PLEASE..
NO TIME D:
sucks..

i dont wish to be hurt again.
that feeling is worse than everything else , really.
i think i'm scared to accept relationships now..
i hate it.
i'm only a small girl, not an adult.
i can't take up so much stress ..
really ):
i just want a true love, its simple ..
why can't it be fufiled ?
why why why ?
but i think at my age, i shouldn't about this..
i REALLY REALLY REALLY wish that SY and ME can be together, WITH TRUE HEARTS !
Its hard , its difficult.
Because happiness is needed for us to get it for ourselves.
i dono if he is truuue this time.
i'm really scare to imagined i would get hurt by them again.
So, i'll just see who the GOD wants me to BE WITH

The fear are sliding through my vains and the pictures never seemed so beautiful.
I never thought I would die alone,
with a fear that I won't describe.
My body will prove the point my pen never could.

Good things always seem to turn
into mistakes...you wish you could
take back everything...& you wish it would be perfect...& be PERFECT forever...
but then you realize that you cant take back anything...
knowing that you did nothing wrong & it was something
else that caused everything to go wrong...
but no matter how much you wish for it
it will never happen...& it will never
be perfect...& you wasted so many times
crying & hurt over something...that was
never really worth all the hurt in the
first place...but even still you wish
everything would be perfect..



its so easy to believe someone when
they tell u exactly what you wanna hear.
but in the end, they're just cheating your trustness towards them... ..

Just because his eyes don't tear
doesn't mean his heart doesnt cry
and just because he comes off strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong ..

I hate to face tomorrow, tomorrow's tomorrow, tomorrow's tomorrow's tomorrow..
Anyway, i think i'm SCARED TO FACE EVERYDAY FROM NOW ON ..
oh my, .. GOD.
Last time, i'm a cheerful girl, with no problemss IRRITATING ME ,
just a simple and cheerful girl..
Immature and just liking to be childish.
But after i've been with u , i've been MORE MORE MATURE ,
I didn't even imagined till so far i would be so mature after steading with u.
Knowing more and more about life's things..
and all these all that.
I think i'm facing each and everyday with FEARS surrounding me.
Tomorrow i needa spot 1 thing from him.
So, i'm very SCARE to spot that ting , really.
Please god, save me from this world..


For last ,
I wish I were as strong
as you think I am. x333

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女生的第六感好准哦！！！！！！！！
Yesterday slep at 3am++ ..
cause when i close my eyes, 那些画面都是sy..
就在想我会和他再在一起.
today, morning went school , mood was good :D
Can say today der MOOD is good until........
heehee.
go back class after national athem.
let jie xin see my new neoprint with cousins.
than Kevin ask jie xin to let him see.
jie xin ask me whether want to let kevin see anot.
i say don't want.
jie xin gave me back the neoprint.
kevin ask me to lend him see the neoprint.
i say don't want.
than blah blah blah , me and kevin also got talk more lah.
after that he sms me , ask me wanna be back him mei.
than i of course want lah, cause i dont wanna lose such a good kor :D
than we patch-ed liao !!
ｃｏｎｇｒａｔｓ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ
recess, drank soup nia cause dont wanna eat.

after recess is mother tongue.
the lesson was like.. damn boring !
than maths last 3 periods.
kept talk with kevin kor than miss bay there keep say me... zz
than sy also kept looking, but i dont care him , just continue do wad i wanna do.
this is the first time sy look so long at me?
.. o.o
than lunch liao, nothing to do zzz
went up to hall smsing and listen song.
than dear call me go down she want give me the prezzie for the annive.
than i go down, fitrah gave me ... o.o
the andy kor and they all rush down and see the prezzie SIAO !
than go bak class remedial.
LC test..
than Kevin kor zzz dont wanna say lols.
budden he's thick skin?
lolss !
after school, put the prezzie at dear baggie der beside.
hehees.
at canteen there play play play till 3+++
than went to playground there cause Jonathan di call us go there
played catching.
sianz, i wanna go boon keng buy bubble tea.
than went there with SISTERS.
but the guys went tuition...
so nvm liao..
walking to the tap-card,
received message from sy..
o.o dont wanna say much liao.
cause the invited readers also know about it liao..
only some still dono.
hees.
k , i'll end my post here tired liao.
only slept 2 hrs ytd.
kelian.
loves everyone.

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Just now watch-ed Ko 3anguo , 终极三国.
So touching, cried too.
haix, anyway wat i wanna say is , leaving ur beloved is so hard eh ....
watching that time think of sy ,
haiya,
i'm so stupidd...
kept think of him him him.
i think i know what my heart really wants,
i want to be with him！
but nevermind lah, i still will forget him arh...
its okay okay okay ...
i'm fine fine fine..........
just now the stupid ZHIXIN kor called, so irritating lah.
than i dont care, give my sis listen the fone.
than they talk talk ..
than give bak me i also dono liao lahh.
haiya my sis also say he irritating bleahs.
okay lah, nothing to say....
I don't wanna be so stupid , kept waiting for him ,
at last , he will not even appear.
sooooo ....
MAYBE after PSLE, i mean when last day or almost gonna last day of sch liao,
and i still haven't give up sy, i will ask him to meet and ask him to tell me he dont love me,
like that i will really give up that time..
:D
so, best wishes to me ^^ <3

Labels: touched

Whee :D
Loves this blogskin lots lehh.
cause its like so easy to read those post that i've POSTED ! ^^
alot ppl link me in their bloggies lehhs.
but my blog is only open to invited readers.

Ivy's INVITED READERS
Evonne (dear/mei/bestie)
Jie Li (jie/bestie)
Jie Min (jie/bestie)
Jie Xin (jie/bestie)
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Sebrina (Baobei/jie/bestie)
Vicky (jie)
----------------------------
Wooo :D
See , these invited readers are so LUCKY yah?
Hahas:D
Felt honoured invited by me??
HAHAHHA !
lols i baichi , nothing to do...
HAIYA , time to go study sicence liao loh.
BYE BYE ! takecare yah , my readers ! ^^ <3<3

Labels: smiling

IDK why , i thought i've already success-ed in giving up on you.
But after i've break with Kevin , i realised i miss-ed u and loved u much much more than before,
I really don't know what my heart really wanted..
If you look deep inside my heart ,
You will see how much i've
really cries
You'll find secrets hidden,
Best friends, and Lies
But what you'll see the most
is how Hard it is to stay STRONG
When nothing is right
and everything is wrong.
NOBODY really knows me well,
I always wanted *SOMEONE* to know me the best..
I think i'm not trying to hard to live without you,
lonely and sad.
I always tried to GIVE A BIG AND HAPPY SMILE , giving out thru my true HEART.
why am i fighting to live if i`m just living to fight?
why am i trying t0 see when there isn't nothing in sight?
when no one gives me a try why am i dying to live
if i`m just living to die..
You really CAN'T see how much i'm suffering without you.
I miss-ed u more and more and even dreamt of you.
I'm always SO CONFUSED why i can't choose my choices myself?
why can't i choose who i want to LOVE?
I've so much doubts inside my heart......
And Nobody really helps me to slove my doubtss!
I wish you're the one there to help me slove ALL MY DOUBTS.
But you're inside your girl's heart
and leave me alone.
You're so heartless, to don't even care about me.
If only you could care about me A LITTLE BIT , I would be CHEERED so MUCH MUCH MUCH.
I think you've already meant TOO MUCH in my heart,
UNTIL i tried so much to kick you off my heart, it just doesn't go off.
I don't UNDERSTAND why you want to play with my feelings
I don't UNDERSTAND why you wanted to LEAVE me
I don't UNDERSTAND why you NEVER care bout me already
I don't UNDERSTAND why you always act if you're fine
I don't UNDERSTAND so MUCH MUCH things about you.
NO WONDER we've broke right?
I don't even dare to think how much you and your girl love each other.
I REALLY FEELS VERY MOODY WITHOUT YOU.
I really wish you could TELL me the truth, whether you love me ANOT !
I'm always wishing that something bad had happened to me, so you could care and worried about me.
and i'm always wishing that you know how i feel THESE DAYS
this means that i really wanted you to CARE so much about me.
I know that its unrealistic to think
That things will get better
Between {you|&|me}
Cause time-after-time
You just s/h/a/t/t/e/r my h|e|a|r|t into PIECES
But when I''m [without you]
I feel so t o r n|a p a r t
Everyone says to give up on you, but they don't
see you like I do. You're the one who broke my heart,
you're the reason my world fell apart. You're the one
who made me cry, yet I still love you and I don't know why?
I really wanna call you,
but I know that it's not right.
I guess I'm not prepared to say... Goodbye, so long, farewell.
I won't be seeing you again.

Ivy's DEAREST READERS,
Do you know the feeling of despair..?
When u really love someone, When u really care,
Its hard to walk away when you really wanna stay with him/her..
Do you know it tears u up inside, when u try to
decide between whats wrong and right?
My trust isn't coming back for him
Cause my love for him will always last eternally
He in my heart and I loved him from the start..
Its so hard to believe that I and him were
Never Meant To Be from the start.
I hope my dearest readers will not have the feelings i've had before,
the sad and lonely feeling,
without ur love one beside you..
Treasure what you have now and don't take things for GRANTED ..
Best wishes to my READERS , <3

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HELLO :D
BACK FROM IDIOT MALAYSIA...
there no nice zzz
dont wanna go back liao :D
stay at singapore n i c e r
HOME SWEET HOME :D
received so much message and missed call when reach home.
:D
Haiya.
Nothing much to say bleah bleah.
tired liao see when got time than post bah..
20++ days to PSLE ..
OMG :O

Labels: smiling

Changed blogskin.
Cause wanna refresh the page.
Hmm, mind giving some comments bout my blogskin?
is it better or should i change it?
Haahass:D
PLEASE DO GIVE UR OPINION !
THANKS!
Aiyyahhs i just currently put this skin bah.
Maybe will change it again soon heehees:D

I should've KNOWN better than to fall in love with YOU
Now everything are gone and my and your love is just a faded memory, that you may never want to think about it?
I should've KNOWN better
Now i'm like a prisoner to this pain..
And my heart still aches for you.

I think of you in the silence, often speaking your name in my mind,
ALL I LEFT ARE MEMORIES AND A HEART AROUND YOUR NAME,
my heart aches with sadness and all my tears flow out eventually.
but what it meant to lose you no one will ever know..
I'm always asking myself, "if the heart is one of the strongest muscles , why is it so easily broken? "
Its very sad when you meet SOMEONE who means a lot to you,
And at last, you found out in the end that it was never meant to be yours,
And you just have to let it go ...
I can't get mad at you for hurting me over & over again , because over and over again , i've always let you..
I wondered what it would be like IF i didn't say that 3 letter words..
WOULD IT BE BETTER THAN NOTHING.

Love is really a word that no one can explain...
it comes and goes for me and it will never stay ):
why can't true lovee come to me ?
i've tried so hard wishin'it would word out....
but in the end I dont know what it was all about...
Be good and set some rules...
BEING single isn't that bad?!
but now i see that being single is just being alone and sad with tears everytime..
ANOTHER DAY - all alone again ...
ANOTHER GAME - another broken HEART shattered in pieces on the ground , why do i do this to myself??
If you won't leave me lonely , i would be so happy..
I'm very tired of falling for guys and getting hurt ..
FOR ONCE , i wanna fall, and not get H U R T !

The 3 letter words came out from his mouth,
I was taken in with his l i e s
and you knew I was too weak to leave you ..
but u cruely made me leave you.
and abandoned me in this sad and lonely world, all by myself.
I'm truly sad D:

How can you walk right by and not even glance my way when i'm having a conversation
with our old friends..?
why do you always abstain?
Im still so USED to seeing you and you walkin right up to say hi..
that sometimes i seem to forget the reason you've made me cried.
i really hope i could turn back the time , to when you've asked me for stead.
The hardest thing in life i ever had to do is pretending that i DONT CARE
when i know i still love you so much.
i wish i could give up.. and lose all hope for us.
i wish i could realize the difference , that we're both different people from different world.
but what hurts me the most is wondering if maybe i never meant anything to you at all..
and you love me was just a l i e ?
It hurts so much to love you the way I do,
And then look at you and realize how much you don't care

Sometimes at night , i think about ME and YOU .
I think of the great days we had before i said were over..
you're close to my heart even though you're far away , in your girl heart.
I try to make things straight again but they're never going to be 'OK'..

I really wish you know who you love..
Hope u can look at my eyes one last time, and tell me that you DONT LOVE ME.
like this, i will feel more easy givin up on you.

It's so hard to say 'I Love You', and not draw back in tears.
It's so hard to know that you are not there to help me face my fears.
It's so hard to know the phones at reach, but i cannot hear you voices.
It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying DEEP inside.
It's so hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide.
It's so hard to live without you, when i need you more than the air.
I want to scream OUT LOUD HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU, but I must hold back and not be heard.
It's so hard to go to sleep at night when i cannot dream of you.
Its so hard to sit and wonder "WHERE DID I GO WRONG?"

I don't know what to say
Or even where to start
But I never would have guessed
It'd be you to break my heart

If there is a way , I could go back in time
TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS
As if you were still mine.. ):

[Sometimes] what may be the [best] thing to do
Sometimes is the [hardest] thing to do
And for that reason I have to say [goodbye]

"have u ever been in love?
Thats not the point. It is the point.
Its all the points of everything.
But the point is he didn't love u back."

my minds sayin jus fOrget
about him but my heart is
sayin dOnt ever let go of him

You dont know how much u care about someone
until they dont care about you..

You haven't experience had the pain of losing someone that meant EVERYTHING TO YOU..
So please don't blame me for being SO EMOTIONAL like a stupid dumb love ass ..

Labels: brokenheart

Its very weirld..
I dono if you're still bluffing me with ur words?
u say ur heart breaks when i and KEVIN stead right.
Then when u and ur CURRENT GF stead , my heart don't breaks lah?
My heart is made of STONE der lah?
I dono if u know that i knew u had another gf so i broke with u anot lah.?
I really feel very PISS-ED with u.
I REALLY WANT TO GIVE UP ON YOU!
I know that u can't be trusted !
My BRAIN AND HEART KNOW WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE U ARE !
BUT THEY JUST Don't wanna GIVE Up ?
I DONO WHY ?!
THE FEELING JUST SEEM TO CANT GO AWAY ?
):
PLEASE BEGS ! I WANT TO FORGET THAT GUY OKAY?
Its really very CONFUSING to dono WHAT ON EARTH YOU ARE THINKING DO U KNOW ?
I think i felt MUCH MUCH MORE HEARTBROKEN than u felt.. ?
AND NO MATTER HOW MUCH AND HOW HARD I CRY, YOU WILL NOT FEEL IT .....
I felt u're not happy everytime?
But maybe that girl really made u very happy.... so i think u're happy?
I want to be happy because you're is happy.
But how can I be happy knowing that
I'm not the one making him smile?
People say not to cry because it’s over but
to smile because it happened but how can you
do that when just thinking of the good times
makes you wanna cry because
you realize what you’re missing?
He means so much to me. I just wish he
knew because when I’m around him
the say is a different blue.
The last thing I want is another heartbreak.
If he would love me like I love him
I could tell him that I will always be true
but when I try to talk, I just don’t know
what to say because I know he doesn’t feel the same way.
I know I have a heart because
I can feel it breaking.
It hurts so much .. maybe i can even feel the blood oozing out ?
What if i said you never mattered
that i never lost a moment of sleep
what if i crushed all of your dreams
and broke all the promises you swore to keep?
Tell me how your life would be , tell me how would u feel.
if i did to you what you did to me.
If u could feel how i'm currently feeling now, you will know how hurtful i am..
You did it again. You broke my heart again.
You promised you wouldn't do that.
Promised you'd always be here for me.
Promised you'd never hurt me.
And I trusted you. Again.
I was really stupid wasn't I?
Without you, I’m nothing. Without you
I’m suffering. Without you, I’m not whole.
Without you, I have no soul.
I really hate feeling like this ): !!!
But i'll still get on with my life yah..

When you’re with your girl
you act like you don’t know me?
If I would have known this was how
it was gonna be, I wouldn’t have
fallen in love with you from the
first place.
Where were you when I needed you most?
I would have done anything to hold you close
I would have given the world to be back in
your arms but you left me so torn apart.
Love is almost like suicide.
You give so much to that special someone
that you sometimes end up killing yourself inside.
After i'm with you, i know what is love...
You said you would never hurt me.
You said you would never make me cry.
Well, there’s one thing I can admit.
You tell a perfect lie.
Before love my heart was a black hole.
After love, I didn’t have a heart.
I'm not sure which is better
The pain is real even if nobody knows.
I pretend that I’m glad you went away.
These walls are closing more every day
and I’m dying inside.. and nobody knows
it but me. Like a clown, I put on a show.............

Labels: brokenheart

Falling in love can never be for two persons in the same time. it is just that you are getting lost and confused out here.
it happens that you are in love with someone and you are sure about that , and than you just meet a new one and start to get attracted to him, you found in him what is missing in the other, or you just find the same things that you loved in the first one, this mostly happens when you were with the first one for a long time now, when you start to feel that you lost the passion with him, and you lost the sweet things that you used to have at the start, and now everything is getting more responsible, and in the same time, you are living this again with the new one, so you start getting confused, you would even find yourself more attracted to the new one, simply because you dont have it yet.
What am trying to say, that you can never love two persons in the same time, if loving someone mean that you would sacrifice everything for him, so which one you would sacrifice for the other, it is simply that you are not seing everything clear, and this because you are living both experience in the same time which is a disaster for the 3 of you. what you need is go outside the circle so you can see better, you need to spend sometime alone, without seing anyone of them, without talking to any of them, just between you and yourslef, you can then look deep inside and find really what you feel, you should just look better.
hope * really know that if you continue this way, * will end up loosing both.

Labels: love

First u know what love is? If it fulfills these criterias then U really r in love.

What is love? When we claim that it's love that we have for someone,are we correct? Something to ponder upon.....
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caughtwithin your chest?
It isn't love, it's like.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't love, it's lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't love, it's luck.

Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't love, it's loneliness.

Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't love, it's loyalty.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't love, it's low confidence.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't love, it's pity.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't love, it's infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn't love, it's friendship

Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
It isn't love, it's a lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favourite things for their sake?
It isn't love, it's charity.

Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's love.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's love.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's love.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there?
Then it's love.

Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's love.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's love.

Would you allow them to leave you , not because they want to but because they have to?
Then its love.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then it's love.




Now U examine urself, where do u lie after answering these questions, If u find urself in any way of Love then tht too would be in either case else none.

Dont mistake and misguide yourself considering it to be Love

COPIED FROM : http://in.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20090225041524AAdKnFd

Labels: love

“Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you. Love me and I may be forced to love you.”

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

“Tears are words the heart can't express”

“Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude.”

“Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today.”

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Labels: move on

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past
~Stop planning the future
~Stop trying to figure our precisely how we feel
~Stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel
~Sometimes we just have to go with.....
"WHATEVER HAPPENS - HAPPENS"

This quote is now just totally suitable for me in my current state.
cause i'll just have to move on now.
until my psle over ..
So... JIAYOUS TO ME :D

Labels: move on

Felt very loved by friends :D
love u guys.

A friend is someone, who upon seeing another friend in immense pain, would rather be the one experiencing the pain than to have to watch their friend suffer
Thanks for always being for there for me when i need u guys.
thanks for cheering me when i'm unhappy.
thanks for caring me
................................
hehe anyw thanks for lots of thingy !
I rather be happy than be in pain hahass
but sometimes There is no coming to consciousness without pain.
Love is pain,
so i'll try damn hard not to fall in love with any other guys.
I wish to only love my FRIENDS.
who are much much better than those idiot stupid guys who always plays with WOMEN AND GIRLS feelings !
RELAX.
MUST SMILE :D

Labels: dono

Today mood was kinda okay ..?
lols.
morning kept too quiet liao , dono why.
maybe cause too tired so dont wanna talk..
at class, change back place liao zzzzz
Kevin sat behind and i sat in front
zz , sianz still needa face him.
today he like purposly wanna spite me by making me jealous.
but i didn't felt jealous at all.
lols.
still ask jiexin they all wanna go watch movie, he treat or whatever.
at recess very nice larh.
ate fruit , then went to toilet with jie xin jie.
came out from toilet, went to play basketball with jonathan , zhi yong, wei xuan , kuang guan, darren .. i think.
hahas, don't really know howda play hahahas.
after that went to buy mineral water.
drink than baobei go and press my mouth and i spilled out zzz
haha so disgusting >went to toilet to wash , so funny !
after that mt , chat chat with steph mei.
after sch, went for the talk 20mins, the NUS student came loh.
she very pretty and mature sia.
after that waited for jonathan at level 1..
so long still haven't come down.
than we walked off with the NUS girl, Zhang Shi Wen
she also going home hahas.
chat chat chat also.
after that seperate liao, baobei and the NUS girl went into the train.
jie xin jie min and jie li went sky.
i walking home.
than walking at the road, got a bee flying around me , i walked quickly.
saw andy and derrian kor.
they say they waiting for jia xin cause jia xin told him she live here.
sure is fake one lorh..
zzz so stupid hor kor go and believe.
than we chat chat till 2+++
hahas, andy kor gave me $2 heehe, thanks !
played too.
after that went home liao.
heeheess :D
Andy kor was the best larh, at least i broke with him liao, our relation still so good heehe:D
Andy kor will always be my kor !

Labels: smiling

O.O
Today, broke with Kevin liaos.
Full-ed of apologises to him, cause i think i'm the one who caused him to fall in love with me.
SO SORRY.
so wished to apologise but i think he will be more angry receiving my msgs ?
haix.
Now, i've lost my one and only best kor .. ?

REASONS FOR BREAKING :
1st : Today * sms me to leave Kevin cause * say Kevin don't even put me in his heart , i don't believe.
2nd : Chinese lesson , i told steph mei bout the sms * send me. Shey say its true... cause yesterday she go and ask Kevin if i break with him, what will he do? he say nothing loh.. , he say sad also no use.
and he said before , just play play , kiss kiss then break up larh?
3rd : i also dont wanna stead now ler , really tired liaos. only wish to concentrade on psle, others don't wanna care liao.
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Me and Kevin shoudn't started in the first place !
Cause he really have sincerity to ask me for stead, so i accepted...
now, i've lost a good kor.
i've regretted accepting him , if not , we will only be mei and kor now.
thats wat i only wanted.
haix.
SORRY SORRY SORRY !
i don't dare to seek forgiveness from you as i think i'm the one who's wrong...
i'm such an idiot, always getting the wrong boyfriend !
I HATE IT !
BOYS REALLY DO SUCKS !
DON'T WANNA HAVE BF LIAO!!!

Labels: dono

I DECIDED !
I WILL CONCENTRADE ON PSLE FROM NOW ON.
DONT WANNA CARE ANYTHING LIAO.
BUT DAR WANT I STILL WILL CARE?
MAYBE..
HAIYA NVM.
JUST WISH ME GOOD LUCK :D

Labels: half happy half sad

TO LSY ! :

PLEASE STOP GIVING ME HOPES TO THINK THAT YOU STILL WANT ME TO BE YOUR GF.
I KNEW U STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME.
BUT I NO LONGER TRUSTED YOU.
AND NO LONGER WANTED YOU AS MY BF.
CHANCES , I'VE GIVEN.
BUT YOU DIDN'T CHERISH IT.
SO , NOW U HAD YOUR OWN GF, WHICH IS BETTER THAN ME 100%.
YOU CAN FORGET ABOUT ME LER.
SO PLEASE STOP GIVING ME HOPES.
AND DO YOU THINK THAT MY HEART WON'T BE BROKEN WHEN YOU'VE BEEN JIO-ING ANOTHER GIRL WHICH IS AT YOUR HOSTEL DER?
NEVERMIND, YOU TOTAL HAD A LOT OF THINGS HIDING FROM ME.
ITS OKAY , NEXT TIME EVEN IF YOU ASK FOR STEAD, I WON'T EVEN CARE !
EVERYTIME THROWS ME AWAY....
FORGET FORGET FORGET THAT GUY.!

Today was totally a BAD DAY. .. in school D: !
haiya, received a message.. from *
that message was.. long , guess he typed it yesterday ? or whatever.
don't know whether i should believe those words * send me anot.
zzzz
i think i should not trust him ler :D
ZZZZZZZZZZZZ!
cause of that msg, my mood was bad liaozz..
than take the class photo taking, idiot, i dono when become so short liao, sit down on the chair D: !
after photo taking, dar like kept flirting loh.
than i buay song liao ...
going recess, out of the class, dar like want play with me, but i gave attitude to him.
haiya, than he also buay song liao.
recess, i went to 3rd floor , alone.
Cried, cause of that msg * send me.
KELIAN ME D:
Baobei, jies and mei knew i unhappy..
dono why uh, when i unhappy, expression sure will come out from my face.
and they knew i unhappy already..
they tried to cheer , thanks.
jie xin jie guess-ed i cried.. haha, smart arh ..
nvm, anyw dar also like don't care loh.
haix..

SHOULD I PUT DOWN EVERYTHING NOW AND CONCENTRADE ON MY PSLE?

Labels: confused

Love Quotes

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...

We were given:
Two hands to hold.
To legs to walk.
Two eyes to see.
Two ears to listen.
But why only one heart?
Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment,
Pain of love lasts a lifetime.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird,
and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

Love is never wanting to lose faith,
never wanting to give up,
and never truly moving on.
Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.

They say loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices But I'll rather take pains and lots of sacrifices than not to be love by you.

I laugh, I love, I hope, I try I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you.

What I needed most was to love and to be loved, eager to be caught.
Happily I wrapped those painful bonds around me; and sure enough, I would be lashed with the red-hot pokers or jealousy, by suspicions and fear, by burst of anger and quarrels.

What can the love in my soul be compared to another wonderful soul which is so far and yet so close of my self?
What can this symbiosis between two souls can be?
What can love be when you feel you cannot sleep at night, that every drop of dew becomes a crystal in your heart, when every breeze of wind has magical meanings?
What can love be when you feel that you want nothing more in this world that to be with the soul you love?
But what can love be in other transcendental realities? What about our souls?
Are our souls a waterfall, a true Niagara or a smile, a flirt of an angel? Are our souls a mere mood of a fairy or a lightening in a summer rain?
Our souls could be all of this and much more. But what really happens in that transcendental reality when we feel we are truly in love, that we love so much that it hurts? That the air in the room is unbreathable, that the sentimental, spiritual or physical distances kill us? What happens when dawn find us sadder than ever, looking for an excuse or an argument for the person we love so much, our Great Love? What are all thses? What are the looks lost in the desert horizons of unfulfilment or those in the eyes that deeply loose each other in the others inside the souls?

Labels: Love Quotes

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else... ._.
Some of the greater things in life are unseen thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, or dream...
Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it.

He did not cherish me enough.
He takes me as a fool.
I'd enough of being a fool.
He is sick-ed of me, so he went to find another girl.
He takes me as a 便利贴, when he needs me, he'll come and find me.
When he doesn't needs me, he'll just tear and throw me away.
I'm so stupid to think that he really loves me like i'd loved him.
I'm so stupid to trusted him more than 100%.
So what if you'd just knew that i've trusted you more than 100% and you're so proud?
Its no use.
You don't even bother looking at the one month annivarsary card i'd gave you...
I'm so disappointed in you.
Inside that card, is every word from my bottom of my heart...
And you don't even bother looking at it , just threw it away ):
When i knew it, my heart shattered like a glass..
Tried not to cry but tears still flow through my eyes easily and quickly.
Tried not to care but still care.
Tried hard to forget you but still misses you..
Why am i so stupid to love such a guy?
I always thought that you're mine, but the fact is, you're always not mine..
And you'll never be mine ever again?
I really wish-ed to loved you forever..
But i've worked very hard, you didn't...
All you did was... just jio-ing another girl when you're with me..
I'm truly disappointed.
Nevermind,

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.
I will use all my heart to love my one and only darling now.
Bye LSY, hope you'll find your true love......

Labels: love

I've just added a new song called : My Love Will Get You Home
This song reminds me of .... him ?
sorry ! i know i shouldn't think of him.
but when i listen to this song, i'm only thinking of him D:
haix.
so sorry sorry.
i will try my best to forget him :D
sorry dar.. ):
though u knew that i still have feelings for him, but i think you acted in front of me that you don't mind...
actually i can see u mind a lot..
i hope u'll forgive me.
i promise to forget him asap.
PLEASE HELP ME TO FORGET THAT GUY.. ):
I REALLY HATE THIS FEELING D: !

haix nvm
the new song lyrics is this .. heehee, i think i'll type it out personally rather than copy.. if not no sincere BLEAH !

My Love Will Get You Home Lyrics
If you wander off to far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourse..lf lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, My love will get you home.
If the bright lights blind your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourse..lf lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourse..lf lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourse..lf lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home...

Labels: sorry

MY IDIOT MOTHER VERY WHAT LORH !
SHE KEPT FORCING US TO GO BACK TO MALAYSIA WITH HER !
FUCK !
SHE SAY NEXT WEEK TUE MUST GO BACK.
WALAO EH , TEACHER ALREADY TELL EVERYBODY THAT NEXT THUR AND FRI CANNOT GO OVERSEAS LIAO LOH.
CAUSE WE STARTING FROM NEXT THUR ALL THE WAY TILL PSLE EXAM WORK HARD LIAO LER EH.
SHE DON'T EVEN CARE BOUT MY PSLE !
SHE ONLY WANT GO BAK GO BAK !
FUCK HER SIA !
SHE SAY DON'T CARE , DON'T GO SCHOOL. !
WALAO...... SURE WILL GET SCOLDING FROM MISS BAY DER LOH.
FUCK FUCK FUCK
MOOD NO GOOD LIAO LER !
I MUST TALK TO DAD TO TELL HIM.. SEE IF HE COULD HELP ME D: !
&*(@$&@#()#$()@&@!&*!()@*()# !

Labels: piss-ed