IDK why , i thought i've already success-ed in giving up on you.
But after i've break with Kevin , i realised i miss-ed u and loved u much much more than before,
I really don't know what my heart really wanted..
If you look deep inside my heart ,
You will see how much i've
really cries
You'll find secrets hidden,
Best friends, and Lies
But what you'll see the most
is how Hard it is to stay STRONG
When nothing is right
and everything is wrong.
NOBODY really knows me well,
I always wanted *SOMEONE* to know me the best..
I think i'm not trying to hard to live without you,
lonely and sad.
I always tried to GIVE A BIG AND HAPPY SMILE , giving out thru my true HEART.
why am i fighting to live if i`m just living to fight?
why am i trying t0 see when there isn't nothing in sight?
when no one gives me a try why am i dying to live
if i`m just living to die..
You really CAN'T see how much i'm suffering without you.
I miss-ed u more and more and even dreamt of you.
I'm always SO CONFUSED why i can't choose my choices myself?
why can't i choose who i want to LOVE?
I've so much doubts inside my heart......
And Nobody really helps me to slove my doubtss!
I wish you're the one there to help me slove ALL MY DOUBTS.
But you're inside your girl's heart
and leave me alone.
You're so heartless, to don't even care about me.
If only you could care about me A LITTLE BIT , I would be CHEERED so MUCH MUCH MUCH.
I think you've already meant TOO MUCH in my heart,
UNTIL i tried so much to kick you off my heart, it just doesn't go off.
I don't UNDERSTAND why you want to play with my feelings
I don't UNDERSTAND why you wanted to LEAVE me
I don't UNDERSTAND why you NEVER care bout me already
I don't UNDERSTAND why you always act if you're fine
I don't UNDERSTAND so MUCH MUCH things about you.
NO WONDER we've broke right?
I don't even dare to think how much you and your girl love each other.
I REALLY FEELS VERY MOODY WITHOUT YOU.
I really wish you could TELL me the truth, whether you love me ANOT !
I'm always wishing that something bad had happened to me, so you could care and worried about me.
and i'm always wishing that you know how i feel THESE DAYS
this means that i really wanted you to CARE so much about me.
I know that its unrealistic to think
That things will get better
Between {you|&|me}
Cause time-after-time
You just s/h/a/t/t/e/r my h|e|a|r|t into PIECES
But when I''m [without you]
I feel so t o r n|a p a r t
Everyone says to give up on you, but they don't
see you like I do. You're the one who broke my heart,
you're the reason my world fell apart. You're the one
who made me cry, yet I still love you and I don't know why?
I really wanna call you,
but I know that it's not right.
I guess I'm not prepared to say... Goodbye, so long, farewell.
I won't be seeing you again.

Ivy's DEAREST READERS,
Do you know the feeling of despair..?
When u really love someone, When u really care,
Its hard to walk away when you really wanna stay with him/her..
Do you know it tears u up inside, when u try to
decide between whats wrong and right?
My trust isn't coming back for him
Cause my love for him will always last eternally
He in my heart and I loved him from the start..
Its so hard to believe that I and him were
Never Meant To Be from the start.
I hope my dearest readers will not have the feelings i've had before,
the sad and lonely feeling,
without ur love one beside you..
Treasure what you have now and don't take things for GRANTED ..
Best wishes to my READERS , <3

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