Guess what ?
PSLE left 14 days.
2weeks.
tomorrow will be 13 days , means 1 week and 6 days.
sianz.
i think i've tried to use my heart to feel if sy is real this time.
but i think, i felt till ... he's not true, not true !
he'll cheat me again.
yah maybe.
and slowly, i began to think about next year, we won't be in he same sch, and all these.
So thats why bahh.
haix, guess today is another heartbroken day?
though i didn't let my feelings out.
and i talk to kor that time he kept turn to my direction o.o
at least i've smiled alot today, alot i think:D thanks to kor and jies and baobei.
at recess, played basketball with baobei and kuang guan.
hit till chin .. blah.. ><
after that jie min and jie xin jie say i pangsei they all, kept go with Sebrina..
zzzz
i'm rather heartbroken and sad now ..

Just now, i'm thinking all these :
if i'm gonna stead with him again, i must have to prepared for the feelings of getting cheated again.
but i don't want, so i don't wanna stead with him.
even if we stead, next year we also will not be in the same school together, so there's no point at all.
i rather not go into the same sch as him, cause next year if i never go same sch with him, i'll slowly be able to get overr him.
what i really hated most is that ring on his left hand fourth FINGER !
AND I ALSO HATED MOST IS , he haven't broke with his gf.
he's really... i dono what to say about him. -- speechless for him.

Why do I try not to cry, sometimes I think I could die. But when it comes out, I just want to shout, and scream and cry it all out.
I really can't take up so much things inside me, i'm so stress-ed out in love, studies, parents and lotsa lotsa things. I just dont wanna do anything anymore, just sit and cry..

Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody. You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy but at the same time you don't know exactly what is wrong either? i've got this feeling before, and i thought over and over again what exactly went wrong, but i just can't get the answer.



i'm sick of tring, it's all over, no turning back,
no more chances or even looks, you've had many
oppurnities that you've never wanted try to cherish it , you may just
not even understand, the nights lieing awake thinking
about you or the tears rolling down my face when wishing that you're always happy.
I wish that I could turn back the time,
Cause if I knew that your love towards me is like this,
Back then I wouldn't have made you mine.

I really wants to make him feel so much bad inside almost like
a feeling of knives going through his heart,
because that doesn't even compare to what I'm Feeling Right Now..

For every heart that found a love,
there's a heart that'll cries.
For every dream that is reborn,
there's a dream that dies.
For everyday filled with sun,
there's a day of rain.
For every hour filled with joy,
there's an hour of pain.
For every smile upon a face,
There's a tear to cry.
For every cheerful hello you says,
there's a sad goodbye.
Eventually, everything will comes to an end.

I cant stand the thought of him with his current girl.
It rips my heart apart to think that he would carelessly
throw away what we had.
for someone who could never make him as happy as i did.

I'm really so stupid, really stupid.
You know why?
Because over and over again, I've always trusted every word you've said.

From now on, i'm not gonna trust his single words, he've hurt me too many times, too many. I can't even count finish all the scar he've left for me. If he could feel the great 100000000x pain i'm feeling now, i wonder what reaction he will give me.....

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