Another heartbroken day..
It's always the same.
At recess knew that sy still wearing that ring..
mood straight away changed liaozz,
change to very moody.
moody till lunch than went to 4th floor ,
alone , cause i wanna cry , wanna 静一静 awhile..
after that , i felt relieved more liaos.
at hall saw baobei , steph mei and hui shan,
they ran to me.
and say alot thingy hehehe , to make me laugh, thanks baobei :D
baobei still say my blog very sad T.T
after that miss bay came , went back class.
mood alr okay liao.
Test till 3.30 pm .. zzzz
haix , after that went home liaos.

That feeling was damn pain, hate it..
steph mei still ask me why .. zz
Myy heart, had been shattered into pieces again.

I don't wanna fall for him again, dont think I can
take the pain. Don't wanna have these feelings again if he doesnt feel the same way. Don't want my heart to jump when I haven't talked to him for a whil.e
don't wana see him grin if Im not the one whos making him smile
dont wannaa try to explain if he'll never understand
I dont want tears in my eyes everytime I think of the memories we had.
Dont want my heart to be empty if he is the only one who can fill the space
I don't wana tell him or let my feelings show
dont wanna get played anymore.
Before I met him, I was always
considered the strong one,
the one who never got hurt;
I could do anything and never fall.
I felt like I was the epitome of invincibility;
of confidence. Now you've come along , you've broken my heart,
and you've shaken me from that really strong
foundation that I had spent years constructing.
I found out more about myself than I ever had before.
I found that my foundation wasn't as
strong as I thought it was .
I found that love isn't all it's cracked up to be
and I found that this time
maybe I won't be able to get
back up quite so easily...
you've ruined my life..

Just when I think things between us are getting better,
you have to turn around and do this, Break my
heart in another place.
Eventually I wont have a heart left because you have broken it too many times.
So tell me this, when are you going to take the pieces of my heart
and put them back together and never ever let it break again?

I'm just wondering if it hurts that you to know that I cant talk to you.
What do I say to someone who has hurt me,
confused me, and broken me beyond measures
but who I still love more than words can express?
It wouldn't have been so bad if my
expectations hadn't been so high...
I just expected us to be together for so much longer..., even FOREVER.
and for you to never hurt me...
I'll never expect anything from you again because all gets
me is always a broken heart..

One day, you said everything was just right.
I don't see how it changed over night.
One day, you said everything was so strong.
The next day you turn to me and say it's
been wrong all along.
I never meant to cause you any harm.
How could two people start out so close and end up so far? I'm breaking down ..

It was as if I wanted to cry myself to sleep.
I thought that maybe my tears would cause him
pain, let him know how bad I was hurting
but I knew that was just silly.
He would not know of my pain.
He would not see my tears. So it doesn't
matter, I would be the only one to ever
feel the pain anyway..

You never really fall out of love with your first love.
You just find someone else who can cover up the feelings
but every once in awhile, you still wonder what could have been and a tear runs down your face.

Sometimes I wonder if I just faked our whole relationship...
if he ever really did love me....
if I ever really did know the feeling of how it felt to be loved
and to love....
maybe I just made the whole thing out to be more than it was.
Because he's with her now.
He's been with her for 1 month plus.
and my dreams and hopes of love
are suddenly shattered....
because I know now that when I call out his
name at night....he's calling out hers
and there's nothing in the world that
hurts more....than knowing the only man
I've ever loved.... is out there loving someone else..

My tears are still falling from my eyes
this isn't about wishing you'd come back
to me, and it's not about wishing someone
would notice me. This is about surviving.
This is about simply getting through tomorrow.
You said you love me , you say that when you're 寂寞 you'll always think of me.
I don't know whether to believe you or not.
because each and everytime i believed you, in the end i'll only get back pieces of heart which is broken.
Isnt it funny how you hate the guy
who broke your heart yet when he comes
running back your arms are wide open , ? that's me.
But i'll stay strong and reject him :D

In my dictionary, there's only one word that you'll always give me.
That is,
DISAPPOINTED

I THINK i'll never trust him again.
My 1st time trusting so much about one person, and he just take my trust for him for granted.
i can only say you're really a great lover yah ?

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